-| 'ships of my life |-

I have been thinking for sometime now about relationships - in general, in my life, in others' life. 

I have realized that in the hierarchy of relationships, we tend to glorify romance and downplay friendship - as if meaningful, lifelong friends are training wheels for the deeper satisfactions of committed love.

But though there may be no ceremony, no 'pheras' or cinematic airport scene, platonic 'partnerships' are no less challenging, rewarding, fraught, supportive or fun filled. 

I now know - whether it's witnessing the dissolution - or evolution - of a weekly ritual, or finally admitting decades-long jealousy of your childhood, our inner circle determines the way we approach everything outside of it. In group texts and over years of night-overs, through ritualistic birthday check-ins and inside jokes, we process the A, B and C plots of our lives.

Do I have to take a vow to be someone's VIP, or emergency contact? What 'ships am I nurturing and where are they headed are the questions I have been asking myself recently. While I am trying to figure this out - I want to thank you for your patience, love and support you have shown me over the many years. I am grateful for all the shared moments (which are lovely memories and give me hope in grim times),  criticism (which helps me to be better) and mostly for having faith in me! 

Thank you for everything 

-Letter to my pillars, July 2019